LET YOUR CONSCIENCE BE YOUR GUIDE

i made a very impromptu visit to see MrRocker last week (first SD i ever met from the sites). it was just a casual get-together.. in my mind i knew there would be no sex or anything, considering we're more of friends and not in an arrangement. when we were laying out pool-side we started talking about an interesting topic: SDs of course.. lol. he asked me if i was still involved in being a SB. me being a bit inebriated at this point, i told him basically all about my arrangement with Lawyer and how he's married. welllll, MrRocker was rather shocked i had involved myself with a married man. he went into this long spiel about how he had seen girls like me get involved with those type of men at my age and then he meets them 5+ years later and they despise men now, this being because they saw/see what pigs these men are - they have committed themselves to their wife but fuck younger women behind her back. it kind of hit a soft spot in me when he told me this.. and ever since i have been on the hunt now for MrLawyer MINUS the wifey!
i know i want to truely be able to love a man in the future and be 110% confident he loves me just as much. i'd be the 30-something year old wife and i dont want to have to worry about my husband fucking some 20-something year old when he's away on "business". so the search is in full force now and i already have a great pot! :) no details now about him until its fully established we will meet. he's single though, that i will say, and seems very, very generous!
and on a random note - aother guy i was e-mailing from one of the sites offered to give me money via PayPal to prove that he's "serious/real". okay, well he sends me the money (a little over $300) and POOF! lmao like really? hey i mean im not complaining because i basically got money for nothing but so strange it was that he gives me money then stops e-mailing.. whatever though more $ to add to the sugar pot ;) x3

ps- ladies please dont think i am trying to criticise anyone for being with a married man! they are definitely the better prospects for serious SDs (like i've written in a past post)... i just have a guilt problem i guess and am too firm a believer in karma to do it myself at this time in my life. maybe i'll end up with another married man again one of these days... who ever knows in the world of sugarrr x3

LOTS OF POT DATES

i have been so busy lately omg! mostly with training for work and meeting pot SDs.

MR.ROCKER: called me back after i said in the last post i had emailed him and hadnt heard back so i was thinking he went MIA. apparently my email went to his 'spam' folder so he called me yesterday hoping to get together again soon. im starting to focus on finding a SD closer and more local and Mr.Rocker lives in my hometown which i am not living at right now.

MR.DOLITTLE:: had our first meet sat night. took me to a nice restaurant -got scallops, salad, and yummy chocolate dessert. he's a senior VP of a bank, has a boat, jeep, BMW, and motorcycle so might be fun -he seems a little on the soft side as in i could use him (not looking to do that tho! i really respect the whole MUTUAL aspect of these arrangements).

LATIN.LOVER: he cooked me a freaking 5-course dinner sun night and is taking me to see one of my fave theater shows tomorrow night :) he tried to kiss me when i left and i turned my head and said "cheek only" hehe. from what he has told me, he has lived in L.A., NYC, and europe before (speaks italian and spanish -so sexy with his deep ass voice) and was telling me about his past rendezvous's so im trying to play a bit hard to get -since im sure he's used to getting the snatch right away lol. side note on him tho: he was freaking engaged in the past and his fiance (AND unborn child) died in the 9-11 attacks! he also has a lot of past drama with health and TONS of stories about what has happened to him in the past and its a little much -im very NONbaggage/simple-life and i feel like he has a lot of past drama/crazy shit...it makes me feel like we are 2 COMPLETELY diff people so makes me wonder how far this will go. do any of u girls ever have that problem feeling like a SD is so much more experienced than u with life events that its almost intimidating??

THE.RUSSIAN: my new FAVORITE!! :D him and i met for an early dinner today. i felt at ease right away and he's so cute and easy-going and has the sexiest russian accent. reason why he's my 'favorite': he gave me an envelope with $200 in it and this was our first meet. that has never happened yet to me so i was very pleased that he seems to be experienced with what this whole SD/SB thing is really about -the $$$$$ (about damn time!). he emailed me saying he was impressed by my intellect, beauty, etc and wants to meet possibly in a more 'private' setting and i emailed him back asking exactly what he means (tho i have a pretty good idea..lol). he is married so i guess he wants something discreet and im hoping to make him a regular SD that could finally be the outlet to that allowance ive been wanting!

"patience is a virtue"... hope its true! off to bed . 630am work shift tomorrow -ugh. nighty-night x3

LIVIN' LA VIDA LOCA

well i am all settled in *insert city i am doing internship at* finally. i already hate the job they have me doing tho and have already day dreamed about convincing a pot SD to buy me an apartment and give me an exceptional allowance just so i can stay in this city but not have to work... keep dreaming -i know lol. plus i always know u must have a back-up job for income to avoid ever having to rely on a SD to pay bills bc theyre wayyy too UNreliable. okay so now on to updates, updates, updates!

-OLD SD's (aka. SDs Already Mentioned in Past Posts)-
MR.MENTOR: i still havent went to the gyno yet to get checked after having unprotected sex with him (*tisktisk*) but did ask him about when he got tested last and he said Oct and he was clean, etc. i took meds for a yeast infection and ever since havent had issues but still plan on getting checked. we text every day and he has drunk-texted me twice basically saying he "adores" me and wants me to come back and visit. we'll see..

LATINLOVER: my new addiction. had our first date on thursday and totally hit it off -he has this amazing, deep, sexy voice too. he called me like 5min after i left our lunch date and said he wanted to cook me dinner. i was like um YES u can cook me a 5 course dinner, plus some amazing chocolate dessert. he just texted me to confirm im still coming; im going to his place tomorrow night for this yummy dinner/dessert. like i said in my first post about him, he has told me up-front he's looking for someone quite sexual BUT i plan on not sleeping with him until our next date (if all goes well tmrw night that is). he said he wants to bring me to go see the phantom of the opera this week after i mentioned to him that i love the theater at lunch -sweetness.

MR.ROCKER: he lives in my hometown that i just left. i sent him an email like 3 days ago just to keep our flame ignited, telling him to call me sometime, but no call or response since, so whatever -maybe i'll see him again when i go back home.


-NEW SD's (Never Mentioned Before)-
MR. DOLITTLE: i have a date with him tonight. i call him 'dolittle' bc he's like obsessed with his dog, lol. whatever im a huge animal-person myself. i talked to him over the phone telling him we needed to re-schedule for tonight and his voice is so freakin' high (not like gay sounding just def not manly). i almost wanted to bail out on seeing him altogether after meeting LatinLover, but figured if at the least i'll get a free dinner out of our meet haha.

THE.RUSSIAN: from europe, sexy accent, married, "36 (so he says)". thats really it for now -trying to make a dinner date with him for this week.


PS- the ambassador i mentioned in a few posts back is being postponed. he's really old and filthy rich so i know i should be putting more effort towards meeting him, but he lives a bit far and im still not ready to date a man old enough to be my grandfather!

x3

PARTY LIKE ITS 1989

or more like party with people who were MY age in 1989 haha. last night Mr.Rocker took me to a party he was invited to -i was by far the best looking girl there... which is easy i guess when youre the youngest person there too.

i was originally suppose to go over to his house at noon so we could lay out at the nudist resort by his house (with a bikini) then go to the mall to get me my dress i wanted from Bebe. unfortunately when i woke up the weather was awful: rainy and overcast, and i was so stuffy feeling. my ex was sick when i visited him at school and of course he passed his sniffles on to me -fun shit. i feel so gross right now having a cold from one guy and (hopefully only) a yeast infection from another -no judgement please.

i called Mr.Rocker to tell him i wasnt going to be over as early as we had planned since we couldnt tan anymore and he said he understood but still said we could go get my outfit. i accepted of course but after laying down on the couch i just felt too tired/sick to go shopping then go to a party, so i texted him letting him know i was just going to wear something i already owned and meet him at his house dressed already for the party to give me ample time to rest before.

the party was pretty fun -it was 9bucks for like a rum and coke. no worries tho when ur in the company of a loaded SD ;) i kept telling Mr.Rocker not to kiss me bc i was sick but of course once the drinks starting settling in i got flirty and we were making out and dancing on eachother. when we left i was so tired and looked at his BMW's clock and realized it wasnt even 1a.m. yet -i guess when u party with the old u get tired like them too lol. i opted to sleep in his guest room due to my down-there issues and i havent gotten enough from him yet to feel the need to have to sleep with him. when i left in the morning i told him to keep in touch... he said he would visit me in the city im doing my internship in "if gets an invite that is" from me... we'll see -depends on how well my sugar hunting goes in my new city.

i leave tomorrow morning for my internship so i may be MIA for a bit. once i have any updates i'll be sure to post. i have a good feeling about this guy whos an ambassador. later loves x3

QUICKIE

... a quickie update that is lol. *WARNING: T.M.I. IN THIS PARAGRAPH* so im pretty sure i got a yeast infection from having sex with Mr.Mentor. at least im praying thats all it is -i feel so dumb for not using protection (im on birth control though). i might bring it up to him that i feel uncomfortable with it and ask if he's clean and been tested... a little late on my part. i also sent him a bday card through the mail that im hoping he gets to keep him buttered up since my visit (might as well keep him around for potential company trips he's invited me on in case im ever bored lol).

MR. ROCKER: i saw him this past monday for a few hours before i left to visit school for 3 days before i begin my new job this upcoming week. he's taking me to his friends private party tomorrow night at an upscale venue and i asked him via text to take me to get a super cute dress from Bebe for the occasion. he agreed so hopefully all follows through and i have a cute new dress to add to my wardrobe post-party. also, im pretty sure he's 8 years older than what it says on his profile. hmm... should i bring this up or just let it be?- he still looks great for his age!

LATIN LOVER: he's super good looking this one. we finally traded #s tonight to set up a date to meet up hopefully this coming week once i settle in to the city im doing my internship in. he's also an AMAZING cook (he sent me pics of his dishes). also, my gut (and he himself) tells me he is an amazing fuck so i would be interested to put this to the test [EDIT: the one time my gut was wrong..lol]. im hoping to try some of his cooking (and his fucking) soon hehe.

well i said this would be a quickie so that's it. stay safe sweets x3

MY FIRST SD DATE

i have officially completed my first date with a SD, Mr.Rocker. what was suppose to be just a lunch date turned into a lunch AND eventually dinner date lasting over 7 hours haha. since it was lunch i tried to stay casual and cute wearing tight fitting, light-blue jeans tucked into knee-high black boots, paired with a tight black cami with a long-sleeved, cover-up, a black Guess belt with a diamond studded "G" in the front, a long accessorized silver necklace, a cream colored, leather jacket, and my hair down and straight (with some extra extensions in to give it volume ;) -im addicted lol). it turned out really cute actually bc he was wearing that rocker-type of outfit (dark Affliction shirt, leather wrist-wrap, faded jeans) so we complimented eachother really well i thought.

i tried so hard to be early to make a good first impression but ended up being 5min late (wtf is with us girls and being late!? lol). it was okay tho bc he was just getting out of his car when i pulled in. lunch conversation mostly consisted of him talking about the bitchy ex gf's he had met through the site and how he was ready for a nice, real, good girl. i was basically listening and taking mental notes of what were his turn-on's and off's just so i could be that much more attractive to him.

we went to his house after since i felt comfortable enough by the end of lunch. i followed him in his black mercedes telling myself to look up the price of it when i got home lol (by the way it starts at $85,000!!).. and omg ladies -his house was BEAUTIFUL. it was waterfront with tons of big, open windows to see out and lots of funky art -very modern and fresh and classy.
he offered me a beer which i took (only drank 1 though!). After a house tour we went to this spa resort by his home -a place that a lot of familiar celebs have gone to - with the twist being its clothing optional! lmao. so i saw lots of (old! ew) dick... just not his i swear haha. we only walked around and laid out by the pool in our clothes and just talked. we got dinner at a casual mom and pop's place and when i left finally left at 7ish we hugged and he told me he wanted to get together again mon or tues when im back in town (i told him im going to school to visit friends before my new job starts this weekend, but really yall know im going to see Mr.Mentor).

so the date was definitely a success. my only strike on him was that he did not offer to give me gas money when i drove quite a distance to come see him... im going to mention it to him when we hang out again though and just say i cant afford to be driving so far to see him when i dont have lots of cash to spare. also i felt weird asking him for an allowance bc it just felt well -AWKWARD...mostly due to the fact i was attracted to him in all ways and almost felt rude asking... he even brought it up first asking me "what do u want from this?" and i just fumbled over my words and was saying i wanted a stable, mature man to take care of me? i dont even remember really -i just know i didnt talk cold, hard money. how do u ladies deal with this dilemma when u truly like a SD? -maybe i'll feel comfortable over time? Overall though I was very pleased with the day.

tomorrow morning i leave to go meet Mr.Mentor and will be staying until sunday night. wish me luck ladies! ps- i feel VERY comfortable flying to meet this guy. i have ALL his info, and he even gave me approval to give my best friend his phone # (shes the only one who knows about this trip) in case she cant get in touch with me. thought that was kinda sweet. x3

BAIT, LINE, AND HOOK

well ladies im finally getting some big, SD fish to take my bait. time to name off some men and let yall in on the 411.

tomorrow i have my first date! we'll call him Mr.Rocker because he plays in a band on the side of his career (i forget exactly what he does). his worth is "over a $1,000,000" according to the site i met him on so thats good, PLUS he's very my type (dark hair and eyes, rugged, confident, and only 41). i actually have talked to him before, earlier in '09 when i first signed up for an SD site, like i mentioned was the case with another SD in my last post. well he remembered me and messaged me again, we traded #s again, talked today, and set up a date to finally meet for lunch tomorrow. afterwards he said we can see his house and i can meet his dog, and smoke some weed.. lol -might have to pass on the last thing.

next is an SD i talked about in my last post, the one who only comes to florida 4x a year and who said we talked before over one of the SD sites (and i said i couldnt remember him haha). im going to call him Mr.Mentor bc he is always telling me how im "too innocent" to be on these SD sites and too nice and will get taken advatage of (blabla yeayeayea), pretty much giving me advice. well he invited me to fly up north to come stay with him this weekend and i accepted. he made me buy the ticket with my card though bc he said he's been screwed over too many times and wasted too much money with flakey women. so i was like whatever, plus it gives me more of a push to not chicken out and just do it! –FYI he IS paying me back when I get there and I told him I’ll also need compensation for leaving my car at the airport and checking in my suitcase. so im leaving this friday morning and coming back sunday night. its suppose to be snowing friday! and the highs are in the low 30's there! um yea def not used to that so still trying to figure out what i own thats warm enough to pack.

thats about it for now. theres still the one SD i mentioned in my last post who's very open about what he expects sexually, who im going to now refer to as LatinLover. i'll talk more about him in my next post where i'll let yall know how my lunch date with Mr.Rocker goes.

toodles x3