GETTING REAL

so a few posts ago, the one titled "FOR LOVE? OR MONEY?" i was contemplating staying in my hometown or going back to my school to take classes for the summer. well i've decided on staying in my hometown! ... my ex/"open relationship bf" just wasnt a good enough reason to go back to school a few months earlier than i was anticipating. im focusing on the sugar because like most of u girls will agree: im young, attractive, and in my prime time to get the most sugar possible so I cant be wasting time on one (young, non-SD) guy now! its going to be great because i'll be done working these ridiculous hours ive been having in *the city im currently living in* and actually have my weekends free... meaning more availability to meet with pots/SDs :)

i ended up meeting with MrDoolittle over the weekend for dinner. one word: "amazing".... and im referring to the meal NOT him... haha. we havent even had sex yet and 95% sure we never will because well -he sucks at being a SD! honestly he has no idea what an SD is and what an arrangement is suppose to consist of. i really only met up with him for the dinner bc it was a rare night that i didnt work until close and i had nothing else better to do -plus i had to cancel our prior dinner plans due to my car dilemma i mentioned in my last post... so why not hit up a "SD" (in quotes bc of what i just mentioned before) for a 4 course meal thats on him?..hehe.
DRINK: lemon drop martini - APPETIZER: spinach dip - SALAD: ceasar - ENTREE: center cut filet mignon w/ a loaded baked potato -DESSERT: belgium chocolate sundae. YUM!!
not surprisingly he didnt offer gas money or any type of monetary help when i was leaving. i dont know if it was because i said i had to go home right after dinner rather than "hanging out" at his place or if he figured the lavish meal was what consisted of the "spoiling" part of our "date"... he even had the naivety to say "I love spoiling you" as i was digging into the dessert sundae... and i just thought "WTF.. the dinner is not the spoiling part... ANY guy could buy me dinner!!.. its $$$/gifts thats 'spoiling'. fucking idiot." and i just continued gorging myself until i practically had to be roller to my car. its whatever tho -i didnt even kiss him afterwards and he's... nice? ha. awesome dinner tho... but like any smart SB would be saying after a guy like this: 'NEXT!'

im getting frustrated by the fact that MrLawyer and i have been having issues trying to find a good date both of us are free to meet again. my summer schedule has been all turned around due to me finding out my classes are starting much earlier than i anticipated and MrLawyer, for whatever reason, cannot meet on weekends. soooo moving on? maybe? *sigh* he is a great pot though :( maybe things will work out? i'll keep yall posted on it of course.. but as of now I have to continue my search to hopefully find someone more flexible before the summer starts! au revoir pretty ladies x3

FUCKERS

now that my anger has died down i can post. let me explain:
so the other night i was suppose to meet MrDoolittle when i got off work for dinner. i have not seen him in over a month since he left for a 2week out-of-the-country, get away. well when i get off work and start my car to drive home to begin getting ready... it would not start. GREEEEAT. so rather than getting prettied up and having a fab dinner i was already salivating over during the day, i had to sit in my job's parking lot for 3hours waiting for a tow truck to take my car to the nearest auto repair shop. of course i called MrDoolittle expalining to him the situation and would have to cancel our dinner plans... i even started my car (unsuccessfully) to prove it was not starting and that i wasnt bull shitting my car dilemma.
well come the next day -i get an estimate from the auto shop with how much it is going to be to fix my car. about $1200!!!! what the hell! at this point i was unsure if my parents were going to cover this grandiose cost - so whats a girl (whos a secret SB on the side) to do? -hit up her SDs of course. ..... heres where the anger part comes into play.

i text LatinLover and Mr Doolittle. LatinLover bc he is the only SD i have remained in contact with since coming to the city im currently living in. and Mr Doolittle bc he said over text the night before when my car wouldnt start that he "owes me 1 major spoiling". so get this shit: LatinLover says in reply (in a nutshell) that "hes dealing with fraud in his account and if it was any other week he would be more than happy to give me the money" (NOTE: i only asked for him to contribute 600 or 700 bucks to the 1200 i owed). fucking bull shit! ive said from the git-go that the stories that sometimes comes out of this guys mouth are hard for me to fully believe and this was the final fucking straw!! my response? "wow". and then he continues to text me, delving more into his (made-up!) situation and acting oblivious to the fact my "wow" meant: "wow... [i dont believe your lying, piece of shit, bull shit excuse]". not: "wow...[u poor thing what happened exactly?]" so now he is under my cell's contacts as "JOKE/IDIOT" -lol. i was debating about sending him a nasty text in response to his bull shit excuse for not wanting to help me... but like any good SB would do -i dont want to burn any bridges i might need to reach my final sugar destination :) so i left it at my "wow" and will fully ignore him, starting now.

MrDoolittles response was more along the lines of him saying he had his own mechanic guy who could look at it, and then asked me for all my cars details so he could get an estimate from this mechanic friend. well i havent heard from him since so i guess he's full of shit too about promising me "one big spoiling".

so what the hell is with these guys!!?!? i was seriously flabbergasted by how these idiots who go on sites to meet women -who they should know are in it sheerly for the cash- cant cough up fuckng $600 to help out a SB they have known for a while and has always been nice/appreciative towards them (i.e. ME!). so what gives? am i being too harsh in cutting LatinLover off? either way im done with him bc he is just fucking annoying when i hang out with him and i always feel almost guilty asking for anything monetary from him bc he just seems so cheap sometimes 
oh!... and the end result of my car dilemma was my parents paid for it *phew* but still -if i didnt have them i would seriously be sooooo screwed right now having to pay that much $$$ myself to get my car fixed.. something a SB should not have to worry her pretty little self about.
MrLawyer is still in the picture by the way -we are still trying to find a date where we can both meet in this specific city near us both... the thing is i dont know if we were to do that if he would assume we would need to have sex -and i am just not ready for that with him i dont think -considering we've only met once for lunch. x3