ROLLERCOASTER KIND OF WORLD

i swear -every time i think im getting the hang of this SB thing i see, do, or hear something that makes me question this whole entire thing. am i lowering my standards too much? am i attracting the wrong guys? do i need to go for older men? this is a trial and error process though and i must keep marching through.

i visited Mr.Mentor over the weekend to attend a black tie event. as i had mentioned before he owes me  a shopping trip but we never got around to it for the fact we were pressed for time (i flew in sat morning and left sun night) and were quite hungover from the event thanks to the open bar. this 2nd meeting was much more comfortable for me and he is more like a friend than a SD which i am beginning to wonder is more of a bad or good thing? bad for the fact i feel less comfortable asking for $$ for fear of appearing rude -good for the fact i am one of his top choices to bring to events, trips, etc bc of the ease in which we get along. he bought me a formal gown and new heels for the even and i left the freaking dress in his car!! ugh so mad about that one. then again though i am planning on visiting again.. this to ACTUALLY get my shopping in and then i will retrieve my new black, backless scrumtious gown.

Mr.Doolittle is out of town for the next 2 & 1/2 weeks which is fine with me for the fact my ex is visiting me soon and it will give me more availability to mingle with any new pots. we have established finally that he will give me $400/$500 per week/visit and though it seems quite transactional being handed money every time i leave our visits.. this is why i am doing what i am doing and he needs to keep this in mind too. we have not had sex yet and i plan on taking it very slow with him and want to be 100% that i will be receiving funds for my time before having to add another notch to my belt.

i also partied with LatinLover this past week -OMG had sooooo much fun at one of the clubs in the city im in. decided to invite him to meet me and the group i was there with just to keep me on his mind since i am still working on a day we both are free so he can take me shoe shopping. i am also planning on cutting off our meets after this soon-to-come shopping trip if he does not start giving me any type of monetary funds for my time and the gas needed to drive to his place. maybe i am a fool for continuing to see him as long as i have without being financially compensated (he has taken me to some good shows though) but i feel like once i get to go shopping it will make up for all of this... plus he is good looking so not too hard having to hang out with him besides.. the fact he fucking yaps my ear off about none other than who? -himself of course. ugh such a turn OFF.

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oh yeah!.. one of my most go-to profiles on one of the SD/SB sites im on has been having technical difficulties so i have not been able to sign-in for over a week now! ugh time is a ticking and i need to find another pot Asap so sent in a complaint and hopefully will be back up and running soon.

ps- literally just got my order from victoria secret delivered to my door thanks to the gift card from Mr.Mentor. oh the sweet taste of sugar is just too yummy to give up lol.

NO WAY TO KEEP IT SHORT

though i still consider myself a newbie of the sugar world i am beginning to finally see the process that goes behind finding your ideal SD and the time and ups and downs that comes with all of it.

THE.RUSSIAN: so i finally heard back from him after sending him another e-mail once i saw that he had recently logged onto his SD4Me profile but had still neglected to fill my inbox with an explanation of his dissappearance. in a nutshell my email went like this 'you ask for my work schedule and i give it to you and i do not hear back? if u were looking for nothing other than a one-time thing just tell me... shame on u for never respodning back to my last e-mail'. he responded apologizing and said that once he saw that our schedules did not parallel and for the fact he will be leaving for business for weekends, soon he felt it would be too hard to meet consistenetly. ARGH!-there goes my easy $800! i just replied saying that if he ever has free time and wants to meet again to let me know. and. that. was. it... fuck. so on the bright side one less SD to make time for.. bleh.

MR.MENTOR: i am visiting him the last weekend of february to accomany him to a black tie event (or whatever its called). i really would not be going back again since i said before the only part i enjoyed about our sex was his mouth being down south but we made a bet for superbowl that if the saints won i would get a shopping trip on him and he would buy my ticket to vegas!!! *crosses fingers* also, he scored points because he sent me a V.S. gift card for $100 'to buy something for when i came up'. at this point we've essentially talked every day since our first meet so im interested to see how this 2nd trip will differ from the first. (UPDATE: i went to the gyno last week to get checked out for possibly having chlamydia/gonorrhea... if yall recall i got a yeast infection after having unprotected sex with Mr.Mentor and was freaking some. i have not gotten a call back confirming anything positive showed up so it's 80% sure that im clean still unless they call today or something!)

MR.DOOLITTLE: ugh!!! so frustrated with this one. after going to his house for dinner/movie night i decided we get along well enough so i texted him a few days after to mention the allowance thing. i told him basically i enjoy his company, etc. but cannot continue investing time with him if has no plans to finacially assist me.. hence the reason im even on the SD sites (duh!!!). he concurred and said he would be willing to give me $$ every time we met. well i went to his house again on v-day (he got me red roses... cute but im not ur fucking gf) and we decided that this upcoming Sat we're going to get high with eachother (lol he hasnt smoked in forever!) and take his boat out with his dog and enjoy the FL weather. well when im leaving finally im making faces to myself thinking okay heres the part where he is suppose to give me the money.. we walk to my car and he hands me a $100 bill saying its for the pot im going to get us... UMMM OKAYYY -and where is MY personal money to use?!? omg i was so pissed driving back b/c he better not think that that counts towards $$ for an allowance. hell to the no! so i decided i will get us a small amount of weed (to be able to keep most of the $100 for moi) and i'll hang out with him sat, get high -eat good food -go tanning on the boat... then be up front and say this will be the last time we see eachother. when he asks why i will say - I NEED FUCKING MONEY! (in a much more polite, yet affirmative way) and give him one last chance to hand me to dough right there and then. if not -goodbye doolittle.

LATIN.LOVER: saw him again after 2 weeks on the night before v-day. he made pizza and we watched a movie and he gave me a full body massage then had sex (i won the massage with him in a superbowl bet as well). he is taking me to see La Nouba (yay!) this saturday night (doolittle will be during the day hehe). he also got me this neglige set from VS that was sooo not my style (some black, opened top and g-string with weird asian prints on it..wtf). i keep trying to figure out the pro's and con's with this guy to fig out if i want to continue seeing him. PROS: attractive, cooks for me, takes me to shows, has promised me shopping soon. CONS: do not like his dick size, talks wayyy too much, has major baggage (dead fiancee, etc), has never shelled out $$ to me for even just gas. im trying to hang in there until we go shopping to see how generous he is and atleast get a new pair of shoes outta him and im looking forward to the show sat night. if we have not gone shopping by mid-march then screw it and him (and in a non-literal way too!).

MR.SOUTHERN: met him for an early dinner sunday before i saw Mr.Doolittle and it was such a good date! : ) i actually laughed to the poibnt of tears which has never happened on a first meet. he's super, duper tall so i could def where heels with him and very, very easy going and has a great smile. i did feel a bit strange though after the date like something was off and got my explanation for why last night. when i was at work he texted me saying he sent me an e-mail that i would find "interesting". so when i got home i read it and it was basically him telling me how he did 3 little tests to see how real i was and if i was what he is looking for from a SB. for example: on the date he asked me what i had done/been given by past SDs and i quickly responded it was my business and no one elses. in the e-mail he said he greatly appreciated that and wants to make sure he will not be pusuing anything with a SB who is going to be telling his business to other people, etc. so apparently i passed with flying colors and said he wants to meet again when he is back in my city (he is for business so will be in and out a lot). i would love to see him again and am anxious to see what type of financial assistance i can possibly get from this guy.

TURK: i will no longer write about him because for one, my posts are just way too fucking long with all the pots/SDs i have on my radar, and two, he is not a SD and i will accept that and not waste further time trying to change him into one. the end.

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TOO MANY POTS & NOT ENOUGH SDs

quick updates here on my waaayyyy too many SDs -im so ready to narrow this pot list down to like 2 daddys and just enjoy them... i do like all the attention i get with having this many men on my radar but its just exhausting sometimes trying to make time for all of them:

THE.RUSSIAN: figured he was my 1 of 2 definite SDs.. we were suppose to meet sunday but had to reschedule.. he asked me for my work schedule this week which i sent him thursday and i have not heard back from him! -ugh. i have checked his profile tho on the site we met on and it says he has not logged in for 3 days which is around the time i replied back to his e-mail, so im thinking he is either (a) busy/out of town or (b) caught by the wifey? no idea... what i do know tho is i better hear from him soon because another 800 bucks sounds good right now.

MR.MENTOR: made a bet with him that if the saints won the superbowl he would take me shopping and buy my ticket to vegas... well THEY WON! so now im debating about booking a flight to see him in 2 or 3 weeks so he can follow through with the shopping part. i just am not fond of the idea of having sex with him again (its not bad he's just heftier like ive mentioned before which im kind of shallow about).

MR.DOOLITTLE: havent mentioned him since our first meet because i was thinking i was going to kick him to the curb BUT since things with LatinLover are not as ideal as i was hoping i decided to meet with him again to talk business, aka. how much he's willing to give me in allowance. im going to his house tonight to have dinner and meet his dog, blablabla. we'll see what happens -he is super nice too and has a boat and motorcycle so he would be good for the weekends? lol

LATIN.LOVER: texts me every day... said he had a dream about me yesterday -kind of strange but atleast im on his mind even when he's sleeping haha. rght when i was coming to the conclusion he wasnt SD material (as in not generous enough) i popped the 'shopping' question and he was very obliging about it. unfortunately he said he cant take me until the weekend after valentines so i'll have to wait around until then. whatever atleast he's attractive and we get along well... maybe i'll convince him to take me to another show in the mean time.

NEW SDs:
MR.SOUTHERN: he is going to be in and out of the city im currently living in and we are planning on meeting for lunch this thursday (actually just got off the phone with him about it). stats on him: he's young... 30 i believe... and i already told him that im wary of his SD potential bc of this, so he already knows he better prove himself quick. he also has the cutest southern accent (hence his incognito name) which im typically not fond of since i have a bit of one myself -but im really digging his... hopefully he has the looks to match it (seen pics of him that were cute but u know how that goes sometimes lol).

TURK: not really an SD because i met him through a friend NOT a site so he's prob a waste of my time but i figured if i dont have anything else better to do he can fill up some of my time. he's turkish, hot (dark hair, greenish eyes, olive skin), younger (33?), has $$$, and is free during the days which i like since i work nights and have been bored sometimes during the afternoons. im meeting him tomorrow to go work out (yes work out i said! lol) then lay out by his pool. pretty random i know but its something to do and i could use a little sweaty panting without the whole intercourse part hahaha.

LIVIN' LA VIDA LOCA

well i am all settled in *insert city i am doing internship at* finally. i already hate the job they have me doing tho and have already day dreamed about convincing a pot SD to buy me an apartment and give me an exceptional allowance just so i can stay in this city but not have to work... keep dreaming -i know lol. plus i always know u must have a back-up job for income to avoid ever having to rely on a SD to pay bills bc theyre wayyy too UNreliable. okay so now on to updates, updates, updates!

-OLD SD's (aka. SDs Already Mentioned in Past Posts)-
MR.MENTOR: i still havent went to the gyno yet to get checked after having unprotected sex with him (*tisktisk*) but did ask him about when he got tested last and he said Oct and he was clean, etc. i took meds for a yeast infection and ever since havent had issues but still plan on getting checked. we text every day and he has drunk-texted me twice basically saying he "adores" me and wants me to come back and visit. we'll see..

LATINLOVER: my new addiction. had our first date on thursday and totally hit it off -he has this amazing, deep, sexy voice too. he called me like 5min after i left our lunch date and said he wanted to cook me dinner. i was like um YES u can cook me a 5 course dinner, plus some amazing chocolate dessert. he just texted me to confirm im still coming; im going to his place tomorrow night for this yummy dinner/dessert. like i said in my first post about him, he has told me up-front he's looking for someone quite sexual BUT i plan on not sleeping with him until our next date (if all goes well tmrw night that is). he said he wants to bring me to go see the phantom of the opera this week after i mentioned to him that i love the theater at lunch -sweetness.

MR.ROCKER: he lives in my hometown that i just left. i sent him an email like 3 days ago just to keep our flame ignited, telling him to call me sometime, but no call or response since, so whatever -maybe i'll see him again when i go back home.


-NEW SD's (Never Mentioned Before)-
MR. DOLITTLE: i have a date with him tonight. i call him 'dolittle' bc he's like obsessed with his dog, lol. whatever im a huge animal-person myself. i talked to him over the phone telling him we needed to re-schedule for tonight and his voice is so freakin' high (not like gay sounding just def not manly). i almost wanted to bail out on seeing him altogether after meeting LatinLover, but figured if at the least i'll get a free dinner out of our meet haha.

THE.RUSSIAN: from europe, sexy accent, married, "36 (so he says)". thats really it for now -trying to make a dinner date with him for this week.


PS- the ambassador i mentioned in a few posts back is being postponed. he's really old and filthy rich so i know i should be putting more effort towards meeting him, but he lives a bit far and im still not ready to date a man old enough to be my grandfather!

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QUICKIE

... a quickie update that is lol. *WARNING: T.M.I. IN THIS PARAGRAPH* so im pretty sure i got a yeast infection from having sex with Mr.Mentor. at least im praying thats all it is -i feel so dumb for not using protection (im on birth control though). i might bring it up to him that i feel uncomfortable with it and ask if he's clean and been tested... a little late on my part. i also sent him a bday card through the mail that im hoping he gets to keep him buttered up since my visit (might as well keep him around for potential company trips he's invited me on in case im ever bored lol).

MR. ROCKER: i saw him this past monday for a few hours before i left to visit school for 3 days before i begin my new job this upcoming week. he's taking me to his friends private party tomorrow night at an upscale venue and i asked him via text to take me to get a super cute dress from Bebe for the occasion. he agreed so hopefully all follows through and i have a cute new dress to add to my wardrobe post-party. also, im pretty sure he's 8 years older than what it says on his profile. hmm... should i bring this up or just let it be?- he still looks great for his age!

LATIN LOVER: he's super good looking this one. we finally traded #s tonight to set up a date to meet up hopefully this coming week once i settle in to the city im doing my internship in. he's also an AMAZING cook (he sent me pics of his dishes). also, my gut (and he himself) tells me he is an amazing fuck so i would be interested to put this to the test [EDIT: the one time my gut was wrong..lol]. im hoping to try some of his cooking (and his fucking) soon hehe.

well i said this would be a quickie so that's it. stay safe sweets x3

MR.MENTOR TRIP PART II

CONTINUED:
so my bra and thong eventually come off and Mr.Mentor goes to town down there: it was INCREDIBLE! i cant believe how much more pleasure u can get from a man with more experience. We didn’t have sex though.

The next morning I was so freakin hung over OMG! -Worse idea ever to drink so much the first night. He went down on me again and this time we went all the way and he got off too. I felt kind of weird though after bc im just not the type to fuck someone so quickly and I was also kind of mad at myself for getting naked the first night I was there. I also am not attracted to Mr.Mentor’s body-type either. Though he is tall and looks amazing when he has his suit/clothes on… off its just bleh. He has a bit of a belly that he easily carries off bc of his height but I have always been quite picky about bellies, maybe because i'm so damn skinny myself? Its so weird bc when him and I would be talking in his car or while we were eating I would get horny bc of how well he carries himself (professionally, etc) –but when it came down to being naked with him I just felt like I wanted to hurry up and get it over with and couldn’t enjoy it...he did get me off almost 10 times though thanks to his amazing eating skills haha.
So anyways –he took me out to a major city near his state for the day and I felt nauseous and so headachy from the night before that lasted until late afternoon -ugh. He took me bowling which ended up being fun and helped ease any leftover nerves and hungover feelings I still had. That night his same friends from the previous night came over so we could all go out to the same bar again. When we got there though I couldn’t get in this time! Mr.Mentor’s connection came out and told us that somehow people had found out I wasn’t 21 and there was no way he could let me in. WTF! I live hundreds of miles away how could anyone find that shit out?! It was ridiculous and I was pissed but being older and mature, Mr.Mentor and his friends played it cool and we all just went back to his place and hung out there. i was dressed in the cutest outfit too of a black off the shoulders top, paired with dark skinny jeans, and my black, knee high boots. Hate when youre all dressed up with nowhere to go –something I know u other SBs have undergone when being stood up by flakey SDs.
My last day there Mr.Mentor and I just slept in, got lunch, and went to an arcade (I prefer going to a casual, fun place over an outlandishly fancy, high-strung dinner –less pressure and nerves for me). He handed me folded up 100s before I left to pay for my ticket and I wasn’t sure how much extra he put and was expecting there not to be too much really… though images of me opening up a white envelope with ten 100’s in it danced in my head a few times. On the way to the airport he was telling me of company trips he had coming up, one in particular that he wanted to bring me if I could get a fake ID in order to go out at night. When he dropped me off at the airport we agreed to keep in touch and since Ive been back he has been texting me and we’ve IMed some.

There ended up being $500 all together that he gave me. $300 went towards my ticket though so I only got $200 on top… even less than that though after i paid for parking at the airport and included gas expenses. Im not surprised really –Mr.Mentor paid for all my expenses for the weekend and is such a gentlemen but I think he is headed more in the direction of a longer-term, real BF/GF relationship. I fig this out after he told me that the last relationship he had with a girl from a SD site lasted almost a year -she was super gorgeous too. So I feel like ‘spoiling’ to him consists of paying for dates, taking an SB on trips, and giving her great head (lmao). After thinking about it all and writing this post ive realized that Mr.Mentor is just not what im looking for. I want someone who is more LOCAL, has much more money to spend (as in gives me an allowance), and is already married or def not looking for a gf figure. I know that if I don’t figure out exactly what I want from these arrangements im never going to be satisfied. Until next time x3

PS- had my 2nd date with Mr.Rocker today. Had lots of fun… I’ll talk about that more in my next post.

MR.MENTOR TRIP PART I

i got back from my trip with Mr.Mentor about 2 hours ago. it was nice to say the least. i'll just start from the git-go.:

it was a 2hour flight to the airport he had me fly into. i would have been more nervous during the flight but there was an extremely, gay guy 1yr younger than me who striked up a convo with me that lasted the entire flight. we talked a bit about older men and i told him how the guy i was flying in to see was in his 30's and his response was "you go girl!" lol. so anyways i texted Mr.Mentor when my plane landed and he texted back saying he was waiting outside where baggage claim is. i touched up my makeup in the airport's bathroom and at first couldnt figure out where the hell he was waiting. i started becoming more nervous as it hit me that i was really in a whole other state about to meet a man i had never seen before. we finally found each other and he was waiting for me still dressed in his business suit from work, standing next to his BMW, coupe, convertible (yummy haha). he's super tall, like me, and he gave me a hug when i approached.
we drove an hour back to his city and striked up casual conversation during the drive... there were some quiet moments so i was feeling awkward at first but I don’t think he noticed. we got a quick bite to eat then got to his house. he has a ton of bedrooms in his home and he carried my bag automatically to his room (i thought that was kind of presumptuous on his part) and he then gave me a tour of the house. his basement is like half movie theater, half full-fledged bar. to ease my nerves he made us drinks and we played Wii (lmao). i was sucking my drink down like water and eventually had 2 more. feeling more than buzzed i said i wanted to take a nap before we went out that night.. we laid on the bed and he made out with me some then went to pick up dinner from this amazing Greek place while i took a shower (his shower had like 6 shower heads/massage jets.. i was in heaven lol).
some of Mr.Mentor's friends came over and i was still getting ready long after their arrival -i was so nervous!... and still buzzed haha..and trying to fig out if i wanted to wear my new jessica simpson hair piece (opted not to as to avoid an embarrassing extension slip mishap). Mr.Mentor came up to check on my status and i said i was ready, just nervous. he gave me a quick kiss and said there was no reason to be.
After being introduced to his friends (they were super nice by the way) I drank a few more red bulls and vodka and was sooooo fucking drunk by the time we headed out to the bar we were going to for the night! Omg! I think it was my nerves and the fact I was sucking the (strong) drinks down like it was water and I was a fucking desert victim or something! i was able to get into the bar because Mr.Mentor knew a few people working there (i'm underage still) so we were able to walk right in with no hassle. Needless to say as the night progressed I became even MORE trashed and Mr.Mentor even cut me off and started handing me glasses of ice water to flush some of the alcohol out of my system. I eventually refused the water and said I wanted another REAL drink and by this time was dancing (or more like flailing) around on the dance floor and ended up spilling more than half the drink on my lavendar purple Express button up… which was probably the best thing that could have happened at this point to keep me from doing any more damage lol.
Luckily the bar closed shortly afterwards, so we left finally.. At this point all I recall is shoving some food down my throat and just being, well –drunk as hell. After Mr.Mentors friends called it a night and left, we went up to his room to ‘go to sleep’. Well, due to my intoxication level I just stripped down to my thong and bra and started making out with Mr.Mentor without him even having to say anything, and of course he wasnt complaining and was quite drunk himself. So we were making out and as things progressed…since I was completely wasted the details are fuzzy of what happened next… well actually i’ll save all that for PART II. If I don’t break this trip up it will just be way too long of a post ;) x3

BAIT, LINE, AND HOOK

well ladies im finally getting some big, SD fish to take my bait. time to name off some men and let yall in on the 411.

tomorrow i have my first date! we'll call him Mr.Rocker because he plays in a band on the side of his career (i forget exactly what he does). his worth is "over a $1,000,000" according to the site i met him on so thats good, PLUS he's very my type (dark hair and eyes, rugged, confident, and only 41). i actually have talked to him before, earlier in '09 when i first signed up for an SD site, like i mentioned was the case with another SD in my last post. well he remembered me and messaged me again, we traded #s again, talked today, and set up a date to finally meet for lunch tomorrow. afterwards he said we can see his house and i can meet his dog, and smoke some weed.. lol -might have to pass on the last thing.

next is an SD i talked about in my last post, the one who only comes to florida 4x a year and who said we talked before over one of the SD sites (and i said i couldnt remember him haha). im going to call him Mr.Mentor bc he is always telling me how im "too innocent" to be on these SD sites and too nice and will get taken advatage of (blabla yeayeayea), pretty much giving me advice. well he invited me to fly up north to come stay with him this weekend and i accepted. he made me buy the ticket with my card though bc he said he's been screwed over too many times and wasted too much money with flakey women. so i was like whatever, plus it gives me more of a push to not chicken out and just do it! –FYI he IS paying me back when I get there and I told him I’ll also need compensation for leaving my car at the airport and checking in my suitcase. so im leaving this friday morning and coming back sunday night. its suppose to be snowing friday! and the highs are in the low 30's there! um yea def not used to that so still trying to figure out what i own thats warm enough to pack.

thats about it for now. theres still the one SD i mentioned in my last post who's very open about what he expects sexually, who im going to now refer to as LatinLover. i'll talk more about him in my next post where i'll let yall know how my lunch date with Mr.Rocker goes.

toodles x3

THE TIME HAS COME

well sugies i am finally getting into the game! my new years was great -i spent it with my bf in his hometown. we went out on his friends AMAZING, huge yacht and went to a nice party to celebrate the coming of 2010. so funny bc on the drive there somehow the convo came up that if he was a girl "he would find an old guy and just milk him." -i shook my head thinking "thats just what im about to do my dear." haha. according to fb him and i are still "in a relationship" but we have both pretty much agreed we're taking a break for the next couple of months due to me having a temporary job in another city and taking this upcoming semester off from school. the place i will be doing my sugar hunting is the city the job is in! its a mutual, mature "break-up" (not sure what it is right now) and i hope in my heart that eventually we will end up back together -i just cant do the long distance thing and i also have too much of a conscience to have a bf AND an SD on the side.. and my sweet tooth is aching bad! but enough about my personal stuff lets talk about the sugar!:

as of now i am only using SD4Me to find pots. i will more than likely end up getting an account on Seeking Arrangement but i dont want to be too overwhelmed because i have been letting my inbox build up some, with what appears to be, good pots -and now have finally messaged them all back to see what takes off.

the 2 really worth mentioning right now is a guy who is a freak in the sheets (he's very up front about what he expects from a SB sexually so far) but is good-looking, in his early 30's, and lives in the city i'll be interning in. he's very "you must prove your worthiness of being spoiled" though so kind of annoying, but i was reading D.D.'s latest post about Mr. Chemistry and having an SD for good sex while having another for monetary stuff, so it could work to my advantage i think. the other pot i actually talked to a while ago (like Aug) when i was just merely skimming the whole SD waters, and he messaged me again recently, remembering me from back then (i dont remember him tho lol), wanting to see if we could re-connect and meet finally. only thing is he only comes to my state 4x outta the year so kind of limits what i can get from him/type of relationship we can have.
i'll give them their incognito/blog names when anything worthwhile happens. im just getting started and trying to keep it kinda short for now. until next time! x3