SAY WHAT YOU MEAN

so i saw my ex/open relationship bf yesterday and it gave me a new perspective on what i am looking for from the sugar world. seeing him again made me realize how i love him so incredibly much and how hard it would ever be to find someone to even compare to what him and i have together... he is my best friend, lover, etc. and no one could come between that truely in my heart.

because of this i have decided to stop trying to pretend i have feelings for any of the SDs i have mentioned in the past and start being up front about what i want from this.. which is obviously money/an allowance. i e-mailed Mr.Doolittle about it and havent heard back and honestly i really could care less... theres plenty of other fish in the sea and if a SD does not feel confortable or like he is being used bc i ask for an allowance (um do u remember what type of site we met on!??!) then im glad i found out now rather than later after wasting valuable time.

so do not be surprised by old SDs dissappearing from my blog and new ones showing up (hopefully soon). this is still a learning process for me and im glad im getting closer to realizing what i want from this. also, if you have any advice or an opinion about what type of men are the best for giving allowances without u having to waste time making them think u like them beyond being an SD i would love to hear!  x3

NO WAY TO KEEP IT SHORT

though i still consider myself a newbie of the sugar world i am beginning to finally see the process that goes behind finding your ideal SD and the time and ups and downs that comes with all of it.

THE.RUSSIAN: so i finally heard back from him after sending him another e-mail once i saw that he had recently logged onto his SD4Me profile but had still neglected to fill my inbox with an explanation of his dissappearance. in a nutshell my email went like this 'you ask for my work schedule and i give it to you and i do not hear back? if u were looking for nothing other than a one-time thing just tell me... shame on u for never respodning back to my last e-mail'. he responded apologizing and said that once he saw that our schedules did not parallel and for the fact he will be leaving for business for weekends, soon he felt it would be too hard to meet consistenetly. ARGH!-there goes my easy $800! i just replied saying that if he ever has free time and wants to meet again to let me know. and. that. was. it... fuck. so on the bright side one less SD to make time for.. bleh.

MR.MENTOR: i am visiting him the last weekend of february to accomany him to a black tie event (or whatever its called). i really would not be going back again since i said before the only part i enjoyed about our sex was his mouth being down south but we made a bet for superbowl that if the saints won i would get a shopping trip on him and he would buy my ticket to vegas!!! *crosses fingers* also, he scored points because he sent me a V.S. gift card for $100 'to buy something for when i came up'. at this point we've essentially talked every day since our first meet so im interested to see how this 2nd trip will differ from the first. (UPDATE: i went to the gyno last week to get checked out for possibly having chlamydia/gonorrhea... if yall recall i got a yeast infection after having unprotected sex with Mr.Mentor and was freaking some. i have not gotten a call back confirming anything positive showed up so it's 80% sure that im clean still unless they call today or something!)

MR.DOOLITTLE: ugh!!! so frustrated with this one. after going to his house for dinner/movie night i decided we get along well enough so i texted him a few days after to mention the allowance thing. i told him basically i enjoy his company, etc. but cannot continue investing time with him if has no plans to finacially assist me.. hence the reason im even on the SD sites (duh!!!). he concurred and said he would be willing to give me $$ every time we met. well i went to his house again on v-day (he got me red roses... cute but im not ur fucking gf) and we decided that this upcoming Sat we're going to get high with eachother (lol he hasnt smoked in forever!) and take his boat out with his dog and enjoy the FL weather. well when im leaving finally im making faces to myself thinking okay heres the part where he is suppose to give me the money.. we walk to my car and he hands me a $100 bill saying its for the pot im going to get us... UMMM OKAYYY -and where is MY personal money to use?!? omg i was so pissed driving back b/c he better not think that that counts towards $$ for an allowance. hell to the no! so i decided i will get us a small amount of weed (to be able to keep most of the $100 for moi) and i'll hang out with him sat, get high -eat good food -go tanning on the boat... then be up front and say this will be the last time we see eachother. when he asks why i will say - I NEED FUCKING MONEY! (in a much more polite, yet affirmative way) and give him one last chance to hand me to dough right there and then. if not -goodbye doolittle.

LATIN.LOVER: saw him again after 2 weeks on the night before v-day. he made pizza and we watched a movie and he gave me a full body massage then had sex (i won the massage with him in a superbowl bet as well). he is taking me to see La Nouba (yay!) this saturday night (doolittle will be during the day hehe). he also got me this neglige set from VS that was sooo not my style (some black, opened top and g-string with weird asian prints on it..wtf). i keep trying to figure out the pro's and con's with this guy to fig out if i want to continue seeing him. PROS: attractive, cooks for me, takes me to shows, has promised me shopping soon. CONS: do not like his dick size, talks wayyy too much, has major baggage (dead fiancee, etc), has never shelled out $$ to me for even just gas. im trying to hang in there until we go shopping to see how generous he is and atleast get a new pair of shoes outta him and im looking forward to the show sat night. if we have not gone shopping by mid-march then screw it and him (and in a non-literal way too!).

MR.SOUTHERN: met him for an early dinner sunday before i saw Mr.Doolittle and it was such a good date! : ) i actually laughed to the poibnt of tears which has never happened on a first meet. he's super, duper tall so i could def where heels with him and very, very easy going and has a great smile. i did feel a bit strange though after the date like something was off and got my explanation for why last night. when i was at work he texted me saying he sent me an e-mail that i would find "interesting". so when i got home i read it and it was basically him telling me how he did 3 little tests to see how real i was and if i was what he is looking for from a SB. for example: on the date he asked me what i had done/been given by past SDs and i quickly responded it was my business and no one elses. in the e-mail he said he greatly appreciated that and wants to make sure he will not be pusuing anything with a SB who is going to be telling his business to other people, etc. so apparently i passed with flying colors and said he wants to meet again when he is back in my city (he is for business so will be in and out a lot). i would love to see him again and am anxious to see what type of financial assistance i can possibly get from this guy.

TURK: i will no longer write about him because for one, my posts are just way too fucking long with all the pots/SDs i have on my radar, and two, he is not a SD and i will accept that and not waste further time trying to change him into one. the end.

x3

TOO MANY POTS & NOT ENOUGH SDs

quick updates here on my waaayyyy too many SDs -im so ready to narrow this pot list down to like 2 daddys and just enjoy them... i do like all the attention i get with having this many men on my radar but its just exhausting sometimes trying to make time for all of them:

THE.RUSSIAN: figured he was my 1 of 2 definite SDs.. we were suppose to meet sunday but had to reschedule.. he asked me for my work schedule this week which i sent him thursday and i have not heard back from him! -ugh. i have checked his profile tho on the site we met on and it says he has not logged in for 3 days which is around the time i replied back to his e-mail, so im thinking he is either (a) busy/out of town or (b) caught by the wifey? no idea... what i do know tho is i better hear from him soon because another 800 bucks sounds good right now.

MR.MENTOR: made a bet with him that if the saints won the superbowl he would take me shopping and buy my ticket to vegas... well THEY WON! so now im debating about booking a flight to see him in 2 or 3 weeks so he can follow through with the shopping part. i just am not fond of the idea of having sex with him again (its not bad he's just heftier like ive mentioned before which im kind of shallow about).

MR.DOOLITTLE: havent mentioned him since our first meet because i was thinking i was going to kick him to the curb BUT since things with LatinLover are not as ideal as i was hoping i decided to meet with him again to talk business, aka. how much he's willing to give me in allowance. im going to his house tonight to have dinner and meet his dog, blablabla. we'll see what happens -he is super nice too and has a boat and motorcycle so he would be good for the weekends? lol

LATIN.LOVER: texts me every day... said he had a dream about me yesterday -kind of strange but atleast im on his mind even when he's sleeping haha. rght when i was coming to the conclusion he wasnt SD material (as in not generous enough) i popped the 'shopping' question and he was very obliging about it. unfortunately he said he cant take me until the weekend after valentines so i'll have to wait around until then. whatever atleast he's attractive and we get along well... maybe i'll convince him to take me to another show in the mean time.

NEW SDs:
MR.SOUTHERN: he is going to be in and out of the city im currently living in and we are planning on meeting for lunch this thursday (actually just got off the phone with him about it). stats on him: he's young... 30 i believe... and i already told him that im wary of his SD potential bc of this, so he already knows he better prove himself quick. he also has the cutest southern accent (hence his incognito name) which im typically not fond of since i have a bit of one myself -but im really digging his... hopefully he has the looks to match it (seen pics of him that were cute but u know how that goes sometimes lol).

TURK: not really an SD because i met him through a friend NOT a site so he's prob a waste of my time but i figured if i dont have anything else better to do he can fill up some of my time. he's turkish, hot (dark hair, greenish eyes, olive skin), younger (33?), has $$$, and is free during the days which i like since i work nights and have been bored sometimes during the afternoons. im meeting him tomorrow to go work out (yes work out i said! lol) then lay out by his pool. pretty random i know but its something to do and i could use a little sweaty panting without the whole intercourse part hahaha.

SUGAR ON MY TONGUE, TONGUE

i have found my SD everyone. thats right -less than 1 month into my hunt and i found my kill. [EDIT: never will i say this again bc right after this post TheRussian goes M.I.A.... oh the curse of the blog lol.]

THE.RUSSIAN: we met at a hotel sunday afternoon like planned. i was super nervous at first but right when i got there his sexy accent and down-to-earth, gentle demeanor put me at ease. i was COMPLETELY at ease when i walked into the room and there was a swarvoski gift bag on the table. he told me he had bought me something as a gift and it was this beautiful pendant necklae laced in the swarvoski crystals -so my style too which was even more impressive. we talked some, did the deed... twice (both times lasting less than 2min LOL... whatever) and inside my swarvoski bag was an envelope with $800. i emailed him the day before we met telling him that i expect him to be giving me $$ bc he enjoys my company and that it is a gift from him to me and that it is NOT payment for sexual favors, etc. he told me he understands and respects that and does not want to offend me by making it seem like that type of scenario. we are going to meet again this sunday.

LATIN.LOVER: omg! sat night we went out to a club downtown and i got so freaking trashed... i ended up puking all over me and my little black dress in his sports car. apaprently i opened the car door to finish outside of it while he was driving! lmao. he was sweet tho and cleaned me up and washed my dress for me.. still so embarrassing tho omg!! note to self: do not drink down triple vodkas and tonic like it is water. it kinda sucked bc he had connections for me to get into 2-3 21&up clubs, but all of those fell through once we were out -so we ended up having to stay at this 18&up club he nevers really goes to. we ended up having sex too and holy shit his dick is so freaking thick and not that long which is like the opposite of what i prefer. like im talking, i felt sore afterwards thick. its a shame too bc i was looking forward to him being my designated fuck buddy daddy but now that ive test driven the car i dont know if i want to continue an invest in it.

so now im at the point where i will be keeping TheRussian around (obviously!) and possibly finding a substitute for LatinLover unless he decides to give me some cash or take me shopping bc i havent seen either yet.. and making me dinner and paying for my drinks when i go out with him isnt going to cut it for much loger.

ALSO! one of the fellow blogging SBs and i met up friday night. i even got to meet her SD! he paid for our delicious dinner at cheesecake factory and gave me some good advice for my SD hunting as well. theyre so cute together :) hehe -promise im not trying to embarass u girl. until next time chicas x3