FUCKERS

now that my anger has died down i can post. let me explain:
so the other night i was suppose to meet MrDoolittle when i got off work for dinner. i have not seen him in over a month since he left for a 2week out-of-the-country, get away. well when i get off work and start my car to drive home to begin getting ready... it would not start. GREEEEAT. so rather than getting prettied up and having a fab dinner i was already salivating over during the day, i had to sit in my job's parking lot for 3hours waiting for a tow truck to take my car to the nearest auto repair shop. of course i called MrDoolittle expalining to him the situation and would have to cancel our dinner plans... i even started my car (unsuccessfully) to prove it was not starting and that i wasnt bull shitting my car dilemma.
well come the next day -i get an estimate from the auto shop with how much it is going to be to fix my car. about $1200!!!! what the hell! at this point i was unsure if my parents were going to cover this grandiose cost - so whats a girl (whos a secret SB on the side) to do? -hit up her SDs of course. ..... heres where the anger part comes into play.

i text LatinLover and Mr Doolittle. LatinLover bc he is the only SD i have remained in contact with since coming to the city im currently living in. and Mr Doolittle bc he said over text the night before when my car wouldnt start that he "owes me 1 major spoiling". so get this shit: LatinLover says in reply (in a nutshell) that "hes dealing with fraud in his account and if it was any other week he would be more than happy to give me the money" (NOTE: i only asked for him to contribute 600 or 700 bucks to the 1200 i owed). fucking bull shit! ive said from the git-go that the stories that sometimes comes out of this guys mouth are hard for me to fully believe and this was the final fucking straw!! my response? "wow". and then he continues to text me, delving more into his (made-up!) situation and acting oblivious to the fact my "wow" meant: "wow... [i dont believe your lying, piece of shit, bull shit excuse]". not: "wow...[u poor thing what happened exactly?]" so now he is under my cell's contacts as "JOKE/IDIOT" -lol. i was debating about sending him a nasty text in response to his bull shit excuse for not wanting to help me... but like any good SB would do -i dont want to burn any bridges i might need to reach my final sugar destination :) so i left it at my "wow" and will fully ignore him, starting now.

MrDoolittles response was more along the lines of him saying he had his own mechanic guy who could look at it, and then asked me for all my cars details so he could get an estimate from this mechanic friend. well i havent heard from him since so i guess he's full of shit too about promising me "one big spoiling".

so what the hell is with these guys!!?!? i was seriously flabbergasted by how these idiots who go on sites to meet women -who they should know are in it sheerly for the cash- cant cough up fuckng $600 to help out a SB they have known for a while and has always been nice/appreciative towards them (i.e. ME!). so what gives? am i being too harsh in cutting LatinLover off? either way im done with him bc he is just fucking annoying when i hang out with him and i always feel almost guilty asking for anything monetary from him bc he just seems so cheap sometimes 
oh!... and the end result of my car dilemma was my parents paid for it *phew* but still -if i didnt have them i would seriously be sooooo screwed right now having to pay that much $$$ myself to get my car fixed.. something a SB should not have to worry her pretty little self about.
MrLawyer is still in the picture by the way -we are still trying to find a date where we can both meet in this specific city near us both... the thing is i dont know if we were to do that if he would assume we would need to have sex -and i am just not ready for that with him i dont think -considering we've only met once for lunch. x3

MATTER OVER MORALS

it seems that in the sugar world, the SDs that are most willing to be generous and stick to the NSA part that goes along with an arrangement seems to be... the married ones. yes, yes -once in a blue moon the guy who's young, attractive, and affluent will come along.. but honestly lets be real -the married guys is where the real sugar is at. theyre the ones who are the most willing to throw $$$ at young, pretty women for a chance to win them over and try to figure whats inside a 20-something year olds mind (and her pants haha). the question is though: do u put your morals on the back-burner in order to attain the matter/sugar/$$$/gifts/luxuries these wedded guys are willing to hash out? i just feel like i might be setting myself up for bad karma and paranoia with my own husband when i finally say "I do." is anyone on the same boat as me with this?
at this point i am in a conflicting situation. let me introduce MrLawyer (briefly, for the fact i have been mentioning men and then they never seem to come up again in any other posts bc well.. we just lose touch and i realize theyre not what i want from a SD. i.e. MrAll-Star).

MrLawyer and i met at a nice restaurant in the hotel he was staying at. he had contacted me before on the site and at our meet reminded me that i had initially blocked him after we exchanged a few e-mails (oopsy hehe). but had created another profile recently and decided to contact me 1 more time since he was coming into my city for business. i had an amazing salad, and then a salmon pasta dish that i took home for dinner that night *side note: i like to order a large, meatless salad to fill me up during an initial meet bc usually my nerves supress my appetitite anyways. but i order a lovely entree too. so by the time ithe entree comes i am always full already from my salad so i get to take the entree to-go and always end up with lunch AND dinner from one meet. maybe a bit tacky? oh well* so towards the end of our meals he tells me to reach my hand under the table to grad something from him. as i clasp my long fingers around what he is holding i feel a HUGE wad of cold, hard, cash. SWEET! he points out how i blushed when taking it bc i mean, it is a bit embrarrassing being handed money sometimes...but i'll just have to get over that :) we finally part and agree we enjoyed ourselves and he'll get in touch with me. i hurry off to the restroom to count the moolah and pull out lots and lots of $20's and altogether count $400. not too shabby for a first meet.

so ive come to the conclusion that the married men are the most generous (as of now i feel). TheRussian and MrLawyer both were married and both gave me money on our first meet. though TheRussian was a flake and pretty much played me (live n' learn) but im hoping i will be able to establish something more long-term with MrLawyer. we've been emailing to find a date when we are both free to meet again... he lives out of state so we'd have to fly... so until then i will update.and in the mean time i guess i will have to set aside my feelings of guilt for mingling around with a taken man and learn from them maybe what they are not getting from their wives that makes them turn to this lifestyle... so i dont do the same with my husband... if i ever even want to get married after living this SB secret lifestyle : /

ps- LatinLover and i are meeting saturday.. he has been the SD that i seem to have been having steady meets with and is becoming more of a friend-type of thing rather than a SD. kind of annoying but who doesnt need 1 more friend who sometimes takes her shopping and to shows and to dinner? lol

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THE LITTLE ENGINE THAT COULD

my first shopping trip went quite well with LatinLover. i got 2 pairs of shoes from aldo and over $100 worth of MAC make-up :) i got sooo freaking high tho before bc like ive mentioned before -he yaps my fucking ear off sometimes with all his crazy stories and antics and baggage -and plus i was kinda nervous since i was losing my SD shopping virginity lol. so i figured being stoned would help hehe... i felt kinda guilty but whatever i got my shoes and he got his sex so it was a win-win situation. i basically told him before we got started that i wanted to establish what i wanted... i told him some makeup from MAC and like 3 pairs of shoes (2 pairs of heels and some gladiator/strappy flats). we spent like over 2 hours trying to find flats with no success because my foot is so damn narrow so all the cute shoes were too wide. no worries tho -next time? we met up for lunch yesterday and had some amazinggg sushi -have yall ever had fatty tuna? it sounds gross but its like the best cut of the tuna and it was muy delicioso! he was talking about how so many people are unappreciative these days and how he does stuff for so many people without aksing for ne thing in return and i was like "umm i hope u are not indirectly referring to me.." and he said no and afterwards texted me reassuring he was in no way insinuating towards me and that i had shown my appreciation above and beyond. and sexually.. lol phew!

i also met that pot from SA i mentioned 2 posts ago. i am going to call him MrAll-Star... he used to play baseball in college and taught little league and just seems like he was an all-american type of guy in college.  we met at a sushi place... i liked that he just ordered whatever without caring about amount or price or anything.. we tried jellyfish -it was interesting to say the least...  the service sucked though but i made sure i didnt act like a whiney brat and bitch about it. when i went to the bathroom he texted me saying that i was hot and "where does he sign my contract?" to basically be in an arrangement with me.. i didnt see it til we said goodbye tho thankfully bc it would have felt awakward for me i think if i had seen it before we said our farewells lol. not much has happened since tho -its been over a week since our meet and we have kept in touch vaguely through text. he said he was willing to do a $500/week allowance -even if we didnt see eachother every week -the thing is tho we havent even seen eachother since our 1st meet so its been hard to really establish ne thing. i texted him today asking if he wanted to meet again this weekend and he said he texted me inviting me to a baseball game in our city and didnt hear back from me so had already made other plans... WELL thats bc i didnt get the freaking text. so i was like "if i dont respond back its bc i didnt get the text bc i will always text back". i was about to be like maybe we an arrangement between us is not going to work bc of our conflicting plans/schedules.. but i dont want to be hasty so im just gunna keep chugging along and hopefully will get some money to fill my sugar freight cars along this rocky SB track -blah x3

LA DI DA

nothing too spectacular happening in my sugar world. MrDoolittle is still in another country, until next week i believe, and has been e-mailing me with pics and updates from his trip and reminding me of his interest in seeing me again when he returns.

i have a meeting with a new pot tomorrow afternoon for lunch. we met on SA and he will actually be the first guy i have met from that site... all my other men have been met through SD4Me... which is still not letting me log in to my account -argh! we talked briefly over the phone and he says he is a self proclaimed flirter over text... um okayyyy. he also said he wants me to be his SB intern and said he would explain what he means when we met. if it consists of me looking pretty and getting paid count me in! haha
he is in his early 40's, good-looking (according to his pics), and seems fairly knowledgable with the SD/SB thing. i told him to pick a restaurant to meet at tomorrow bc "i am unfamiliar with [city im currently living in] still". haha love using that line, takes the pressure off me to pick somewhere we both like -plus if its good food then they get a star in their SD grade book right off the bat ;)

im meeting LatinLover sunday for the 2 S's: shopping&sex of course.. hehe. it will be my first time being taken shopping and im going to try to get a few things ive put off buying with my own cash. im thinking 2-3 pairs of shoes from Aldo, some MAC make-up, and possibly a dress/bikini/lingerie (lingeire being his idea of course). im a bit nervous being i have never been taken shopping in order to get things so another person can purchase them for me, so im curious to see how comfortable i feel with the whole process -and nayways, gotta start somewhere!

i also played around in the CraigsList waters this week. i put up a post basically advertising the concept of someone being my SD and that i was looking for someone who was familiar with the idea or willing to learn. i got a few responses -before it was flagged and promptyly removed (hags) - replied to 2 men and my interest fizzled about 3 e-mails in. plus i was a bit creeped out by receiving e-mails from men who i have NO IDEA what they look like or who they are... im just going to stick with the sites specifically catered to us sugar eaters and givers hehe. until next time - BES0S x3

ROLLERCOASTER KIND OF WORLD

i swear -every time i think im getting the hang of this SB thing i see, do, or hear something that makes me question this whole entire thing. am i lowering my standards too much? am i attracting the wrong guys? do i need to go for older men? this is a trial and error process though and i must keep marching through.

i visited Mr.Mentor over the weekend to attend a black tie event. as i had mentioned before he owes me  a shopping trip but we never got around to it for the fact we were pressed for time (i flew in sat morning and left sun night) and were quite hungover from the event thanks to the open bar. this 2nd meeting was much more comfortable for me and he is more like a friend than a SD which i am beginning to wonder is more of a bad or good thing? bad for the fact i feel less comfortable asking for $$ for fear of appearing rude -good for the fact i am one of his top choices to bring to events, trips, etc bc of the ease in which we get along. he bought me a formal gown and new heels for the even and i left the freaking dress in his car!! ugh so mad about that one. then again though i am planning on visiting again.. this to ACTUALLY get my shopping in and then i will retrieve my new black, backless scrumtious gown.

Mr.Doolittle is out of town for the next 2 & 1/2 weeks which is fine with me for the fact my ex is visiting me soon and it will give me more availability to mingle with any new pots. we have established finally that he will give me $400/$500 per week/visit and though it seems quite transactional being handed money every time i leave our visits.. this is why i am doing what i am doing and he needs to keep this in mind too. we have not had sex yet and i plan on taking it very slow with him and want to be 100% that i will be receiving funds for my time before having to add another notch to my belt.

i also partied with LatinLover this past week -OMG had sooooo much fun at one of the clubs in the city im in. decided to invite him to meet me and the group i was there with just to keep me on his mind since i am still working on a day we both are free so he can take me shoe shopping. i am also planning on cutting off our meets after this soon-to-come shopping trip if he does not start giving me any type of monetary funds for my time and the gas needed to drive to his place. maybe i am a fool for continuing to see him as long as i have without being financially compensated (he has taken me to some good shows though) but i feel like once i get to go shopping it will make up for all of this... plus he is good looking so not too hard having to hang out with him besides.. the fact he fucking yaps my ear off about none other than who? -himself of course. ugh such a turn OFF.

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oh yeah!.. one of my most go-to profiles on one of the SD/SB sites im on has been having technical difficulties so i have not been able to sign-in for over a week now! ugh time is a ticking and i need to find another pot Asap so sent in a complaint and hopefully will be back up and running soon.

ps- literally just got my order from victoria secret delivered to my door thanks to the gift card from Mr.Mentor. oh the sweet taste of sugar is just too yummy to give up lol.

NO WAY TO KEEP IT SHORT

though i still consider myself a newbie of the sugar world i am beginning to finally see the process that goes behind finding your ideal SD and the time and ups and downs that comes with all of it.

THE.RUSSIAN: so i finally heard back from him after sending him another e-mail once i saw that he had recently logged onto his SD4Me profile but had still neglected to fill my inbox with an explanation of his dissappearance. in a nutshell my email went like this 'you ask for my work schedule and i give it to you and i do not hear back? if u were looking for nothing other than a one-time thing just tell me... shame on u for never respodning back to my last e-mail'. he responded apologizing and said that once he saw that our schedules did not parallel and for the fact he will be leaving for business for weekends, soon he felt it would be too hard to meet consistenetly. ARGH!-there goes my easy $800! i just replied saying that if he ever has free time and wants to meet again to let me know. and. that. was. it... fuck. so on the bright side one less SD to make time for.. bleh.

MR.MENTOR: i am visiting him the last weekend of february to accomany him to a black tie event (or whatever its called). i really would not be going back again since i said before the only part i enjoyed about our sex was his mouth being down south but we made a bet for superbowl that if the saints won i would get a shopping trip on him and he would buy my ticket to vegas!!! *crosses fingers* also, he scored points because he sent me a V.S. gift card for $100 'to buy something for when i came up'. at this point we've essentially talked every day since our first meet so im interested to see how this 2nd trip will differ from the first. (UPDATE: i went to the gyno last week to get checked out for possibly having chlamydia/gonorrhea... if yall recall i got a yeast infection after having unprotected sex with Mr.Mentor and was freaking some. i have not gotten a call back confirming anything positive showed up so it's 80% sure that im clean still unless they call today or something!)

MR.DOOLITTLE: ugh!!! so frustrated with this one. after going to his house for dinner/movie night i decided we get along well enough so i texted him a few days after to mention the allowance thing. i told him basically i enjoy his company, etc. but cannot continue investing time with him if has no plans to finacially assist me.. hence the reason im even on the SD sites (duh!!!). he concurred and said he would be willing to give me $$ every time we met. well i went to his house again on v-day (he got me red roses... cute but im not ur fucking gf) and we decided that this upcoming Sat we're going to get high with eachother (lol he hasnt smoked in forever!) and take his boat out with his dog and enjoy the FL weather. well when im leaving finally im making faces to myself thinking okay heres the part where he is suppose to give me the money.. we walk to my car and he hands me a $100 bill saying its for the pot im going to get us... UMMM OKAYYY -and where is MY personal money to use?!? omg i was so pissed driving back b/c he better not think that that counts towards $$ for an allowance. hell to the no! so i decided i will get us a small amount of weed (to be able to keep most of the $100 for moi) and i'll hang out with him sat, get high -eat good food -go tanning on the boat... then be up front and say this will be the last time we see eachother. when he asks why i will say - I NEED FUCKING MONEY! (in a much more polite, yet affirmative way) and give him one last chance to hand me to dough right there and then. if not -goodbye doolittle.

LATIN.LOVER: saw him again after 2 weeks on the night before v-day. he made pizza and we watched a movie and he gave me a full body massage then had sex (i won the massage with him in a superbowl bet as well). he is taking me to see La Nouba (yay!) this saturday night (doolittle will be during the day hehe). he also got me this neglige set from VS that was sooo not my style (some black, opened top and g-string with weird asian prints on it..wtf). i keep trying to figure out the pro's and con's with this guy to fig out if i want to continue seeing him. PROS: attractive, cooks for me, takes me to shows, has promised me shopping soon. CONS: do not like his dick size, talks wayyy too much, has major baggage (dead fiancee, etc), has never shelled out $$ to me for even just gas. im trying to hang in there until we go shopping to see how generous he is and atleast get a new pair of shoes outta him and im looking forward to the show sat night. if we have not gone shopping by mid-march then screw it and him (and in a non-literal way too!).

MR.SOUTHERN: met him for an early dinner sunday before i saw Mr.Doolittle and it was such a good date! : ) i actually laughed to the poibnt of tears which has never happened on a first meet. he's super, duper tall so i could def where heels with him and very, very easy going and has a great smile. i did feel a bit strange though after the date like something was off and got my explanation for why last night. when i was at work he texted me saying he sent me an e-mail that i would find "interesting". so when i got home i read it and it was basically him telling me how he did 3 little tests to see how real i was and if i was what he is looking for from a SB. for example: on the date he asked me what i had done/been given by past SDs and i quickly responded it was my business and no one elses. in the e-mail he said he greatly appreciated that and wants to make sure he will not be pusuing anything with a SB who is going to be telling his business to other people, etc. so apparently i passed with flying colors and said he wants to meet again when he is back in my city (he is for business so will be in and out a lot). i would love to see him again and am anxious to see what type of financial assistance i can possibly get from this guy.

TURK: i will no longer write about him because for one, my posts are just way too fucking long with all the pots/SDs i have on my radar, and two, he is not a SD and i will accept that and not waste further time trying to change him into one. the end.

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TOO MANY POTS & NOT ENOUGH SDs

quick updates here on my waaayyyy too many SDs -im so ready to narrow this pot list down to like 2 daddys and just enjoy them... i do like all the attention i get with having this many men on my radar but its just exhausting sometimes trying to make time for all of them:

THE.RUSSIAN: figured he was my 1 of 2 definite SDs.. we were suppose to meet sunday but had to reschedule.. he asked me for my work schedule this week which i sent him thursday and i have not heard back from him! -ugh. i have checked his profile tho on the site we met on and it says he has not logged in for 3 days which is around the time i replied back to his e-mail, so im thinking he is either (a) busy/out of town or (b) caught by the wifey? no idea... what i do know tho is i better hear from him soon because another 800 bucks sounds good right now.

MR.MENTOR: made a bet with him that if the saints won the superbowl he would take me shopping and buy my ticket to vegas... well THEY WON! so now im debating about booking a flight to see him in 2 or 3 weeks so he can follow through with the shopping part. i just am not fond of the idea of having sex with him again (its not bad he's just heftier like ive mentioned before which im kind of shallow about).

MR.DOOLITTLE: havent mentioned him since our first meet because i was thinking i was going to kick him to the curb BUT since things with LatinLover are not as ideal as i was hoping i decided to meet with him again to talk business, aka. how much he's willing to give me in allowance. im going to his house tonight to have dinner and meet his dog, blablabla. we'll see what happens -he is super nice too and has a boat and motorcycle so he would be good for the weekends? lol

LATIN.LOVER: texts me every day... said he had a dream about me yesterday -kind of strange but atleast im on his mind even when he's sleeping haha. rght when i was coming to the conclusion he wasnt SD material (as in not generous enough) i popped the 'shopping' question and he was very obliging about it. unfortunately he said he cant take me until the weekend after valentines so i'll have to wait around until then. whatever atleast he's attractive and we get along well... maybe i'll convince him to take me to another show in the mean time.

NEW SDs:
MR.SOUTHERN: he is going to be in and out of the city im currently living in and we are planning on meeting for lunch this thursday (actually just got off the phone with him about it). stats on him: he's young... 30 i believe... and i already told him that im wary of his SD potential bc of this, so he already knows he better prove himself quick. he also has the cutest southern accent (hence his incognito name) which im typically not fond of since i have a bit of one myself -but im really digging his... hopefully he has the looks to match it (seen pics of him that were cute but u know how that goes sometimes lol).

TURK: not really an SD because i met him through a friend NOT a site so he's prob a waste of my time but i figured if i dont have anything else better to do he can fill up some of my time. he's turkish, hot (dark hair, greenish eyes, olive skin), younger (33?), has $$$, and is free during the days which i like since i work nights and have been bored sometimes during the afternoons. im meeting him tomorrow to go work out (yes work out i said! lol) then lay out by his pool. pretty random i know but its something to do and i could use a little sweaty panting without the whole intercourse part hahaha.

SUGAR ON MY TONGUE, TONGUE

i have found my SD everyone. thats right -less than 1 month into my hunt and i found my kill. [EDIT: never will i say this again bc right after this post TheRussian goes M.I.A.... oh the curse of the blog lol.]

THE.RUSSIAN: we met at a hotel sunday afternoon like planned. i was super nervous at first but right when i got there his sexy accent and down-to-earth, gentle demeanor put me at ease. i was COMPLETELY at ease when i walked into the room and there was a swarvoski gift bag on the table. he told me he had bought me something as a gift and it was this beautiful pendant necklae laced in the swarvoski crystals -so my style too which was even more impressive. we talked some, did the deed... twice (both times lasting less than 2min LOL... whatever) and inside my swarvoski bag was an envelope with $800. i emailed him the day before we met telling him that i expect him to be giving me $$ bc he enjoys my company and that it is a gift from him to me and that it is NOT payment for sexual favors, etc. he told me he understands and respects that and does not want to offend me by making it seem like that type of scenario. we are going to meet again this sunday.

LATIN.LOVER: omg! sat night we went out to a club downtown and i got so freaking trashed... i ended up puking all over me and my little black dress in his sports car. apaprently i opened the car door to finish outside of it while he was driving! lmao. he was sweet tho and cleaned me up and washed my dress for me.. still so embarrassing tho omg!! note to self: do not drink down triple vodkas and tonic like it is water. it kinda sucked bc he had connections for me to get into 2-3 21&up clubs, but all of those fell through once we were out -so we ended up having to stay at this 18&up club he nevers really goes to. we ended up having sex too and holy shit his dick is so freaking thick and not that long which is like the opposite of what i prefer. like im talking, i felt sore afterwards thick. its a shame too bc i was looking forward to him being my designated fuck buddy daddy but now that ive test driven the car i dont know if i want to continue an invest in it.

so now im at the point where i will be keeping TheRussian around (obviously!) and possibly finding a substitute for LatinLover unless he decides to give me some cash or take me shopping bc i havent seen either yet.. and making me dinner and paying for my drinks when i go out with him isnt going to cut it for much loger.

ALSO! one of the fellow blogging SBs and i met up friday night. i even got to meet her SD! he paid for our delicious dinner at cheesecake factory and gave me some good advice for my SD hunting as well. theyre so cute together :) hehe -promise im not trying to embarass u girl. until next time chicas x3

LOTS OF POT DATES

i have been so busy lately omg! mostly with training for work and meeting pot SDs.

MR.ROCKER: called me back after i said in the last post i had emailed him and hadnt heard back so i was thinking he went MIA. apparently my email went to his 'spam' folder so he called me yesterday hoping to get together again soon. im starting to focus on finding a SD closer and more local and Mr.Rocker lives in my hometown which i am not living at right now.

MR.DOLITTLE:: had our first meet sat night. took me to a nice restaurant -got scallops, salad, and yummy chocolate dessert. he's a senior VP of a bank, has a boat, jeep, BMW, and motorcycle so might be fun -he seems a little on the soft side as in i could use him (not looking to do that tho! i really respect the whole MUTUAL aspect of these arrangements).

LATIN.LOVER: he cooked me a freaking 5-course dinner sun night and is taking me to see one of my fave theater shows tomorrow night :) he tried to kiss me when i left and i turned my head and said "cheek only" hehe. from what he has told me, he has lived in L.A., NYC, and europe before (speaks italian and spanish -so sexy with his deep ass voice) and was telling me about his past rendezvous's so im trying to play a bit hard to get -since im sure he's used to getting the snatch right away lol. side note on him tho: he was freaking engaged in the past and his fiance (AND unborn child) died in the 9-11 attacks! he also has a lot of past drama with health and TONS of stories about what has happened to him in the past and its a little much -im very NONbaggage/simple-life and i feel like he has a lot of past drama/crazy shit...it makes me feel like we are 2 COMPLETELY diff people so makes me wonder how far this will go. do any of u girls ever have that problem feeling like a SD is so much more experienced than u with life events that its almost intimidating??

THE.RUSSIAN: my new FAVORITE!! :D him and i met for an early dinner today. i felt at ease right away and he's so cute and easy-going and has the sexiest russian accent. reason why he's my 'favorite': he gave me an envelope with $200 in it and this was our first meet. that has never happened yet to me so i was very pleased that he seems to be experienced with what this whole SD/SB thing is really about -the $$$$$ (about damn time!). he emailed me saying he was impressed by my intellect, beauty, etc and wants to meet possibly in a more 'private' setting and i emailed him back asking exactly what he means (tho i have a pretty good idea..lol). he is married so i guess he wants something discreet and im hoping to make him a regular SD that could finally be the outlet to that allowance ive been wanting!

"patience is a virtue"... hope its true! off to bed . 630am work shift tomorrow -ugh. nighty-night x3

LIVIN' LA VIDA LOCA

well i am all settled in *insert city i am doing internship at* finally. i already hate the job they have me doing tho and have already day dreamed about convincing a pot SD to buy me an apartment and give me an exceptional allowance just so i can stay in this city but not have to work... keep dreaming -i know lol. plus i always know u must have a back-up job for income to avoid ever having to rely on a SD to pay bills bc theyre wayyy too UNreliable. okay so now on to updates, updates, updates!

-OLD SD's (aka. SDs Already Mentioned in Past Posts)-
MR.MENTOR: i still havent went to the gyno yet to get checked after having unprotected sex with him (*tisktisk*) but did ask him about when he got tested last and he said Oct and he was clean, etc. i took meds for a yeast infection and ever since havent had issues but still plan on getting checked. we text every day and he has drunk-texted me twice basically saying he "adores" me and wants me to come back and visit. we'll see..

LATINLOVER: my new addiction. had our first date on thursday and totally hit it off -he has this amazing, deep, sexy voice too. he called me like 5min after i left our lunch date and said he wanted to cook me dinner. i was like um YES u can cook me a 5 course dinner, plus some amazing chocolate dessert. he just texted me to confirm im still coming; im going to his place tomorrow night for this yummy dinner/dessert. like i said in my first post about him, he has told me up-front he's looking for someone quite sexual BUT i plan on not sleeping with him until our next date (if all goes well tmrw night that is). he said he wants to bring me to go see the phantom of the opera this week after i mentioned to him that i love the theater at lunch -sweetness.

MR.ROCKER: he lives in my hometown that i just left. i sent him an email like 3 days ago just to keep our flame ignited, telling him to call me sometime, but no call or response since, so whatever -maybe i'll see him again when i go back home.


-NEW SD's (Never Mentioned Before)-
MR. DOLITTLE: i have a date with him tonight. i call him 'dolittle' bc he's like obsessed with his dog, lol. whatever im a huge animal-person myself. i talked to him over the phone telling him we needed to re-schedule for tonight and his voice is so freakin' high (not like gay sounding just def not manly). i almost wanted to bail out on seeing him altogether after meeting LatinLover, but figured if at the least i'll get a free dinner out of our meet haha.

THE.RUSSIAN: from europe, sexy accent, married, "36 (so he says)". thats really it for now -trying to make a dinner date with him for this week.


PS- the ambassador i mentioned in a few posts back is being postponed. he's really old and filthy rich so i know i should be putting more effort towards meeting him, but he lives a bit far and im still not ready to date a man old enough to be my grandfather!

x3

QUICKIE

... a quickie update that is lol. *WARNING: T.M.I. IN THIS PARAGRAPH* so im pretty sure i got a yeast infection from having sex with Mr.Mentor. at least im praying thats all it is -i feel so dumb for not using protection (im on birth control though). i might bring it up to him that i feel uncomfortable with it and ask if he's clean and been tested... a little late on my part. i also sent him a bday card through the mail that im hoping he gets to keep him buttered up since my visit (might as well keep him around for potential company trips he's invited me on in case im ever bored lol).

MR. ROCKER: i saw him this past monday for a few hours before i left to visit school for 3 days before i begin my new job this upcoming week. he's taking me to his friends private party tomorrow night at an upscale venue and i asked him via text to take me to get a super cute dress from Bebe for the occasion. he agreed so hopefully all follows through and i have a cute new dress to add to my wardrobe post-party. also, im pretty sure he's 8 years older than what it says on his profile. hmm... should i bring this up or just let it be?- he still looks great for his age!

LATIN LOVER: he's super good looking this one. we finally traded #s tonight to set up a date to meet up hopefully this coming week once i settle in to the city im doing my internship in. he's also an AMAZING cook (he sent me pics of his dishes). also, my gut (and he himself) tells me he is an amazing fuck so i would be interested to put this to the test [EDIT: the one time my gut was wrong..lol]. im hoping to try some of his cooking (and his fucking) soon hehe.

well i said this would be a quickie so that's it. stay safe sweets x3

BAIT, LINE, AND HOOK

well ladies im finally getting some big, SD fish to take my bait. time to name off some men and let yall in on the 411.

tomorrow i have my first date! we'll call him Mr.Rocker because he plays in a band on the side of his career (i forget exactly what he does). his worth is "over a $1,000,000" according to the site i met him on so thats good, PLUS he's very my type (dark hair and eyes, rugged, confident, and only 41). i actually have talked to him before, earlier in '09 when i first signed up for an SD site, like i mentioned was the case with another SD in my last post. well he remembered me and messaged me again, we traded #s again, talked today, and set up a date to finally meet for lunch tomorrow. afterwards he said we can see his house and i can meet his dog, and smoke some weed.. lol -might have to pass on the last thing.

next is an SD i talked about in my last post, the one who only comes to florida 4x a year and who said we talked before over one of the SD sites (and i said i couldnt remember him haha). im going to call him Mr.Mentor bc he is always telling me how im "too innocent" to be on these SD sites and too nice and will get taken advatage of (blabla yeayeayea), pretty much giving me advice. well he invited me to fly up north to come stay with him this weekend and i accepted. he made me buy the ticket with my card though bc he said he's been screwed over too many times and wasted too much money with flakey women. so i was like whatever, plus it gives me more of a push to not chicken out and just do it! –FYI he IS paying me back when I get there and I told him I’ll also need compensation for leaving my car at the airport and checking in my suitcase. so im leaving this friday morning and coming back sunday night. its suppose to be snowing friday! and the highs are in the low 30's there! um yea def not used to that so still trying to figure out what i own thats warm enough to pack.

thats about it for now. theres still the one SD i mentioned in my last post who's very open about what he expects sexually, who im going to now refer to as LatinLover. i'll talk more about him in my next post where i'll let yall know how my lunch date with Mr.Rocker goes.

toodles x3

THE TIME HAS COME

well sugies i am finally getting into the game! my new years was great -i spent it with my bf in his hometown. we went out on his friends AMAZING, huge yacht and went to a nice party to celebrate the coming of 2010. so funny bc on the drive there somehow the convo came up that if he was a girl "he would find an old guy and just milk him." -i shook my head thinking "thats just what im about to do my dear." haha. according to fb him and i are still "in a relationship" but we have both pretty much agreed we're taking a break for the next couple of months due to me having a temporary job in another city and taking this upcoming semester off from school. the place i will be doing my sugar hunting is the city the job is in! its a mutual, mature "break-up" (not sure what it is right now) and i hope in my heart that eventually we will end up back together -i just cant do the long distance thing and i also have too much of a conscience to have a bf AND an SD on the side.. and my sweet tooth is aching bad! but enough about my personal stuff lets talk about the sugar!:

as of now i am only using SD4Me to find pots. i will more than likely end up getting an account on Seeking Arrangement but i dont want to be too overwhelmed because i have been letting my inbox build up some, with what appears to be, good pots -and now have finally messaged them all back to see what takes off.

the 2 really worth mentioning right now is a guy who is a freak in the sheets (he's very up front about what he expects from a SB sexually so far) but is good-looking, in his early 30's, and lives in the city i'll be interning in. he's very "you must prove your worthiness of being spoiled" though so kind of annoying, but i was reading D.D.'s latest post about Mr. Chemistry and having an SD for good sex while having another for monetary stuff, so it could work to my advantage i think. the other pot i actually talked to a while ago (like Aug) when i was just merely skimming the whole SD waters, and he messaged me again recently, remembering me from back then (i dont remember him tho lol), wanting to see if we could re-connect and meet finally. only thing is he only comes to my state 4x outta the year so kind of limits what i can get from him/type of relationship we can have.
i'll give them their incognito/blog names when anything worthwhile happens. im just getting started and trying to keep it kinda short for now. until next time! x3